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| With fading cascade of light and darkness I sit. In the middle of nowhere a lamp post rising from the soft ground high into the air. This lamp post is an elegant one much the kind you would see in an old European city producing a small intense flame. The light it produces stretches about 10 ft where it seems to be fighting the darkness over me.Though past that point is pure darkness, nothing can be seen or heard or felt.......
Everyday I stare at it with much content. And there I sit with my back against this Lamp.Then all at once it occurs to me that this light has always been here..... when did it get here......... why is it here ......is it my light or a light I have found....... I don't remember finding it. Why don't I know I scream with a vacant answer behind it. No one is there..... WHY....... I can remember people with me at one time. This warmth wasn't here before. And then all at once I remember and the truth comes rushing in. I look at the ground and then into the heavens saying a thank you. I know what I must do thanks to You...... but will You give me the strength to do so I ask fearfully. I stand up reassuring myself with the confidence you bestowed onto me. My light was once out and you came and lite it for me. You gave me a chance that no one else dared to do and now I must go out and save those who are lost the same I once was. Slowly I walk over to where the fight between the darkness and light is ravaging. If I stop or faultier or even doubt You I will be consumed. But I must to save them I yell with all my strength. A tear runs down my face....... It is my job He gave me and I will do it fully. A swift movement then a full step.................
Should I continue with this story?
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| *rubs back of head* well I see that I can't put much on this entry since I am not so sure what to put that won't get me in awkward moments with..... well you know who. So where to begin ah I know, my friend has decided to go as someone else for Oni-con so now I'm not sure who I myself will go as now(taking all suggestions), I think this one girl likes me now(or so my friend thinks), I got a mix feeling from an old "friend" of mine when I saw them, I started rhyming with a friend one night(which told me a lot), my friend finally broke down and got a myspace xD(the picture of her is a very nice one), and I found out some things about an old friend that only hurts even more deeply than anything.
Yaay having contacts is so much fun..... woot go Japan in 2009. Oh oh and I can invite some friends to join.... I sure do have a surprise for a friend of mine something I couldn't give her since its in the future xD. Reminder: A good person is one that does not know is evil but someone who does but turns away frome it. I think I will edit this.... again later since its way to random.
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| Wow its been a long time since I've posted something, well something open to the public at least. Oh well hehe wow things have changed since the last post. Where should I start huh well lets see..... something a friend of mine said was i guess you could say hurtful, I got touched by an angle(?), have gotten really close with a friend who I've never even seen but she is really cool, friend went to the hospital(@_@), learned a new martial arts technique, and started a membership at a gym(which by the way the most boring place).
I don't really understand why people have to be so hurtful...... so yes its my fault that I didn't tell her how I felt, but when I have finally just stepped away from it all and trying to just let her go her own way someone just has to say something so hurtful. Its my fault that I let a person I cared about stop talking to me and its my fault that it hurt me. Hmm I guess it shouldn't bother me.
Haha so yesterday/today well it was last night an "angel" that I haven't even seen before came down and wanted to ask something of me. Well it involves some complicated things that I am not allowed to talk about or speak of so I won't go any further. Her and mines little secret I suppose xD not really since it wasn't anything really.
Oh Oh the past week or so I think longer but that doesn't matter but what does matter is that I have meet a really cool person. Well truth be told I've known her for quite a while we just never really talked before which was a shameful thing. She is really cool and she is fun to talk to. I do hope she will be able to visit on my birthday. Oh and we are going to cosplay together at Oni-con it will be so much fun. Kinda funny how everyone thought we liked each other which isn't true we are just friends.
How come I am always the last person to find out about major thing such as friends being hospitalized. And yet I still don't know whats going on.... apparently she is back home which is a good thing? I don't know. Hopefully I will find out more by tomorrow.
Nothing much to say about the gym nor the martial arts technique. Haha oh well nothing I want to say..... I will probably edit this tomorrow since I'm really tired and not thinking right. @_@ tired......bed....... goodnight....
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| So yeah I'm Jacob and this is my first post. Not sure what to say though since there isn't much I'd like to post so that everyone will see, though, I guess I'm being a little hypocritical about stuff like that since I'll probably say things I don't mean. I am 16 almost 17 just one month to go. My friends mean absolutely everything to me. Uh I'm a second degree senior almost 3rd degree black belt in Tae kwon do and now I'm starting hapkido. So yeah I love martial arts and I'm hoping I can start doing more tournaments and eventually hopefully atleast make my way up the ranks to go to important tournaments. But don't worry my primary future is with education, I may be young and stupid when it comes to life, but I do know that.
Oh well..... the other day I got to go to my friend, Caitlin's birthday party at Kemah, It was so much fun. I got to see Chelsea, Paolina, and last but not least Shelby ^^. Apparently I'm in some love triangle that makes no sense to me since its not true. I wonder what they say behind my back o_O. I'm really sad though my plans for her party were canceled they would of been so much fun. I'm planning on going to Kemah again to watch the fire works this Friday.
The other day I said I liked someone else. Which was kinda funny because now everyone is asking me things like," OH OH who do you like" " you don't like..... any more" "aww thats cute". So yeah..... I don't know if there is anything left between me and ..... well it doesn't matter everything I did for her was futile. I knew I should of told her how I felt about her last year when we use to talk all the time.... but her friend told me she liked someone else and the person I liked pretty much kinda showed it to. We sorta drifted apart this past year which is too painful to even think about, but even if something happens again I will always be there for her no matter what.
Ah well I shouldn't worry about the past as much as I do. Plus anyways I don't want to make my first post sad or anything. I'm sorta mad at my Latin teacher I made a 89 for the year which doesn't make sense because I had like 94s all year long which would of given me a 4.3 almost a 4.4 for the year. But I'm still happy I'm hoping to have more of my friends in my classes this coming year. Thought I'm not complaining about this year since I made a bunch of new friends. Though for a while like half of them thought I was gay which is understandable since there are a lot of things I do to make people think that..... but don't get me wrong I AM NOT GAY=_=. Haha I love caps >>.
Oh yeah If any of this doesn't make sense I'm really sorry. I have a really difficult time communicating thoughts. Like I think things backwards. For the most part a girl is right brained and a guy is left.... Well for some reason I am about 55 % left and 45% right and each side has trouble communicating with the other. So at any given moment I can have 2 different thoughts going on in my head( wow that sounds skitzo). Haha but oh well I'm not going to complain about it to much since its kinda interesting since I will act really stupid and have no common sense at all but I understand pretty much everything thats going on.....well sometimes hehe.
So yeah this was my first post.... boring...... unusual..... oh well what do I care since no body will actually read this even if I do make it public. If you did actually read it I hope you liked it? If you didn't sorry for wasting your time.....
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